Spirit: Green-eyed monster

At a time in my life (40's) when I should be accepting who I am , my body, my life and my worldly possessions, I find that I am often consumed with what I do not have, what I have not achieved, how unattractive I feel and how little I have experienced.  I look at younger people and envy their position in life. I often wax philosophically about how the world is open to the young to decide how to live their life.  ...   I desperately want to be satisfied and struggle to feel good about so much in my life, even though I know that I am very blessed in many ways. Maybe it is a mid-life crisis, maybe it is a need for a deeper spiritual connection to our Heavenly Father. Maybe I really need to change my life!!! oh no! not that. Can you say comfortable????? 


If you have ever seen a thin, fit, long haired beauty stroll into the room with cute shorts and a tank while you are wearing loose capris and a boxy tee and felt less than then you have felt the tug of jealousy that I am feeling way too often these days. 


Jealousy robs me of Joy! I know this-  Does that make it easier not to feel this way ---- No


Here is a verse from Proverbs 14:30 to digest: 

A tranquil heart gives life to the flesh, but envy makes the bones rot.

Well now,  (in the church lady's voice) "Isn't that special?" The truth hurts. I am going to focus on the things that I am grateful for and try to change some habits that are holding me back.  

My time to be young has passed, my time to live a content, meaningful, healthy life has NOT passed- maybe it is just beginning. 

I hope to spend time this week working on my tendency toward envy through meditation on positives, and prayer. Definitely going to be studying the Word on defeating the green-eyed monster now that I have become aware of what it is taking from me. I want to  accept myself in this phase of life. Time to grow into my age and love it. :-)

Please join me in prayer - pray for me to grow in contentment, and acceptance but also for yourself to grow more peaceful and joyful as well. I will pray that anyone who reads this will find abundance in their life through gaining a more positive perspective.

Mind/Body/ Spirit - Life is moving fast

My Life at this time: 

Lots of GroupRide classes and Zumba classes. 

My son Jake who is now 18 has had a lot going on this past month- Prom, Academic Awards Banquet and getting ready to graduate. Exciting time - He received an academic scholarship to the University of Tennessee. I am so proud and I look forward to seeing what the future holds for my baby :-)

I spend a lot of time with my friend Martie! She has become such a close friend in the last year. We work out together, go out to dinner, we text and call each other. I thank God for our friendship. 

My other son Logan who is 15 (and doing a lot of driving with my husband and myself) is looking forward to having his driver's license in August. We also have to schedule a necessary surgery for Logan (his anterior labrum is torn)- for June. This means he will  miss his junior year of football. Prayers appreciated. 

Field day is coming up this week for me and it is really going to take place over 3 school days. Wed. Thurs. and Friday. I am stressed to the max - trying to plan it, organize it and run it to an entire school family's satisfaction. ----- Next weekend I will feel like a weight has lifted. My last day of teaching for this school year is May 25 because... 

We are going to Madeira Beach on the 26th!!!!! Bring it! It will be my first time flying on an airplane. This trip is a surprise for Jake for doing so great all these years in school. 

It will be so wonderful to have all 3 of the people I love the most in the whole world all together one more time for vacation. Cannot wait! 




I am trying to lose weight by eating healthy (less than 1250 net calories a day) - and exercising a lot. I try to be a great Mother, wife, teacher, friend, daughter, sister, aunt and also try to keep learning more about Jesus Christ and my purpose here through bible study and prayer. 


Yes, life is moving fast and my plate is full- but I do feel that I am blessed to have my life. 
Your life is made up of all the small daily decisions that you make. Live in a way that you feel peaceful about. Do your best in every endeavor and you will not regret it. Have a glorious weekend!

Mind: What you perceive & believe, you will live!

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