I am emotionally drained at this point. I have one more event to attend for my husband's father. It is perhaps the most difficult of all: the graveside service.
I pray that the Lord gives me strength to not have any selfish thoughts and that I will allow my spirit to guide my actions. Today the mind is full of ego and desires for things to be different. I must rise above the circumstances and "feel" what is really happening. A man is being lost as the patriarch of his family and my husband's heart is breaking.